Two Way Prayer – 6th May 2020

Infinity, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference.

How can I make this day the best day possible?

By being. Knowing you’re tired from no sleep and pausing before responding.
Just being.

Live. Laugh. Love.

Enjoy your family. You don’t know how long they will all be here for.
Enjoy the sunshine you’ve been blessed with. Smile., laugh, see the humour.

Give xxx your time. Help her see that you’re giving her time so that she will feel loved.

Just be.

There are no rights or wrongs. Well, some of the choice you’re making (re not eating enough) veer closely to the wrong, but they’re not ‘wrong’ as in to be guilt inducing. They’re lessons to learn from. What to do different next time so you don’t head here again. And, if you do, that’s okay too.
Life is a journey, not a destination. Enjoy the journey you’re on. You’re blessed to be here. A few years ago you’d never have thought it were possible to be okay living in a world. To spend time every day – or almost – in nature.

You’re blessed . Enjoy your blessing.
You can only do your part for G. And you are doing your part. When you didn’t give to her because you didn’t think it would be good for you, you made a wise choice. You were looking after yourself. You are giving her all that you can. You’re there for her. She knows you are. You’re helping raise funds for her, as much as you can. More isn’t your responsibility. You can’t raise from anyone if it will hurt others. There are never any ‘right’ choices. There are choices. And you learn from every choice. You use the rocks to climb over. Or get back up if you trip. It’s a learning game.

Every choice you make teaches you something about yourself. About what you want and what you don’t want. Every choice, you either form yourself based on it, or discard. Just is. You just are. And it’s all good.

Two Way Prayer – 3rd May 2020

Infinity grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference.

Intention: try tune in although surrounded by people. Someone send me a pain filled angry ranting comment on one of my posts. It’s still pending. I don’t know whether to ignore or reply by email or on here.

Tuning in is a gift. Giving to others is connection in the best way. Even if it’s frustrating and annoying.

Ignore the comment. It hurts to leave it when someone is so obviously hurting. It hurts to ignore when you see someone is in pain. There was so much vitriol in that comment, and it made no sense at all. Who ever the guy is he was ranting at someone who he thinks is you or he doesn’t even think it’s you. You don’t need to know what his thoughts were. You can’t heal or save the world. You can’t change everyone. You can’t help everyone. You don’t have the emotional energy to engage with or help this guy. His comment hurt you even though it so obviously wasn’t addressed to you. You don’t need to open yourself to more hurt and pain. You won’t get anything by replying. Maybe you can approve and let others respond. Or don’t. But don’t engage yourself. You’re worth more than that. You deserve love and care. Your love, light and glitter is real regardless of what anon commenter said. Your sunshine is true. You are not darkness or poison. You’re awesome and love. You are beautiful just the way you are. That applies to weight too. You are beautiful and don’t need to lose weight. You don’t need to change anything at all. You don’t need control. You are beautiful and you are worth it.

Love, light and glitter

Two Way Prayer – 30th April 2020

I planned on going outside but I’m still on my bed, so… any place is the perfect place to tune in 🙂

Infinity, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference.

Intention: to tune in and let it lead me.

You’re letting go of some of the responsibility that isn’t yours. Still taking some. Trying to change that which isn’t your too. There is no one right way. There is the best/safest way for you. When it’s a choice you can make, not what you feel you have to do.

You are awesome and worth it and so very enough. Just as you are.

Let it go. You are. Some. You’re letting some of the toxicity roll off you. Some, lots, you have to let go. Engaging or explaining it to others won’t help you. Though it’ll help you build your relationship with them so has its benefits.

Love. And know you are love. Trust. And know you are trustworthy. Give. Know that you are given to. Hope. Live. Laugh. Enjoy. Relax. And love every moment of the journey.

Two Way Prayer – 27th April 2020

Infinity, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know that I am not in control.

Intention: I don’t know the right thing to do with AG. I feel stuck because she really needs me. I don’t know where the boundaries lie or whether I should or shouldn’t give to her.

E, there’s never any one right thing. There’s only the best choice in the moment. Should you give to her? She needs you to. You aren’t going to take over. You made it clear that what she wanted yesterday you would give if you could discuss it with her therapist. She’s not wrong to have said no. You’re not wrong to have said no. She wants to spend time with you. You can do so. As long as you keep to the socially distancing rules.

Will you be giving up things? Yup. You’re allowed to give beyond yourself. So long as you keep to your boundaries. I know you don’t know what they are. And that’s okay. Trust yourself. Trust your I tuition. You know when something is okay for you. You knew it wouldn’t be okay for her to sleep by you. Because she is asking for things that aren’t healthy you aren’t sure about the things that are okay.

You can give the things that are okay for you to. Helping her look for a number. Spending time with her. Are healthy things for a friend to do. Just keep to friend activities and you will be okay. You are okay. She will be okay.

It’s okay if you make the wrong choices. That is how you learn….

Love, light, and glitter

Two Way Prayer – Friday 24th April 2020

Infinity, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference.

Intention: to tune in and let whatever is come up and just be. A couple days ago I didn’t listen to what I wrote and gave advice. And had a way too long conversation with some who I’m not good at keeping boundaries with

Just breathe. Just be. Everything is a learning game. You make the wrong choices so that you see the impact it has and know to choose something different the next time.

Don’t speak to her. You don’t need to. She will want to discuss some valid things that need your input to purchase but ask your father to. Not you. It may end up with something not exactly what you want but that’s worth the payoff for not speaking to her for another few hours. If you discuss it with her it’ll be another few hours conversation hearing her twisted values and trying to twist your words. Not intentionally. She’s not intentionally manipulative. And you’re letting her cross your boundaries. Being that you can’t keep them with her just don’t discuss this purchase. The worst is it’s not perfect. You will be sad, angry and disappointed with that. It’s a waste of a buy because of her issues. Your okayness comes first. If you’re lucky it’ll be something good. You never know. And get your father to discuss it with her. It’s not really fair to him either but you come first.

You heard that yesterday. That you come first. In this situation you do.

You’re worth it. Just breathe and know that you’re okay…

Love, light and glitter